Today marks twenty-six years since my 5-year-old son Jason died. I will always miss him, but he lives on in my music.
Last week, I released a new meditation album named Heavenly Healing Meditation Songs. I am blessed to be healed.
https://itunes.apple.com/us/artist/judy-unger/980739638
On this anniversary of the heart, I do feel blessed. I am healthy and inspired as I finish the creation of an audio course for Insight Timer named “Grief Healing Through Music.”
It’s been such a beautiful experience to verbally express my stories, lyrics and gentle healing suggestions. Connecting with my audience through this project is something I’m very much looking forward to once my course is live.
Last week, my daughter came over and took some pictures of me to use for the course profile picture. Somehow, I forgot to include my guitar. I just might do another photo shoot, but I haven’t decided yet.
Jason does live on. I end my brief post with an excerpt from my lesson for “Beside Me Always.”
With this lesson I’ve shared how the statement “beside me always” is very uplifting. I remember being overwhelmed by unrelenting grief and feeling my pain lift just with the thought of my loved one holding me. A distinct memory can bring my loved one into my heart. When I’m in deep despair, I’ll listen in my mind to hear their voice, guiding me with love. And when I feel so much love inside, my grief is soothed and my loneliness is eased.
Thoughts equal feelings and thoughts can affect outcomes. It has been far more helpful for me to picture myself healing, than to view an endless horizon of despair.
When you feel discouraged, perhaps you can imagine ways where your loved one is beside you, holding you up. Continue to try to find signs of healing.
When I read the words of “Beside Me Always” at Jason’s funeral, my words expressed how he was always beside me. In the beginning of my grief journey, I used to worry that I would forget him. My longing for his physical presence was like torture.
But when I healed, I realized that Jason never left me. He was always there.
All of my angels surround me. They don’t want me to suffer and they comfort me when my heart is open to them.
I feel that I’m too smiley here for my profile on a grief course. But the rainbow over my head is very cool!
